Saturday, September 10, 2016

My New Blogging Home - Living Homeward


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Sunday, January 3, 2016

Books and Movies - Best of 2015

So the insanity of last year (finishing out pregnancy and work, parenthood, and moving back to California) didn't leave me much time to read or watch as much as I have in years past. However, I still wanted to share my list of favorite escapes in 2015.

Books
Alas, I only read four books and a play in 2015 (other than the Bible and parts of a breastfeeding book and sleep book which have been my newborn survival bibles) so I'll just give you my take on each.

  • Go Set a Watchman by Harper Lee - I did not hate it as much as many people did. In fact, I didn't hate it at all. Taking into account all the circumstances surrounding the work, I thought it was a good companion piece to Mockingbird, and I kind of liked that Atticus was made more human and didn't remain the bastion of virtue that he has been venerated as.
  • All the Light We Cannot See by Anthony Doerr - Loved it! The storyline was not crazy interesting but it was absolutely beautifully written and I really enjoyed it.
  • Macbeth - I read this since I never really read it in high school. It was good but I'm really, really bad at understanding Shakespeare.
  • Lila by Marilynne Robinson - I loved this one too. I read Gilead a few years back and really enjoyed it, although I didn't remember much of it. (I blame N. The sleep deprivation has killed brain cells and memory!) Very well-written and the title character was perfectly realized.
  • The Girl on the Train by Paula Hawkins - So I "liked" this book in that it sucked me in and I read through the whole thing in one evening, but I mostly didn't like it because it was crazy depressing and the characters were very flat and one-dimensional.
Movies
Again, there are so so so many movies I missed last year but here's the best of what I saw.
  • The Galapagos Affair: Satan Came to Eden - Really interesting and crazy story, especially after having visited the Galapagos last year.
  • Snowpiercer - I could write a whole blog post on this one because I actually found the story to be a great analogy of a person's journey to faith. Even though the super violent story of a death train traveling the world in the end of days doesn't seem to scream Gospel truth, the more I thought about it the stronger the analogy became. It wasn't an original thought, I got the initial seed of the connection through a Gospel Coalition blog post, but anyway, I enjoyed the movie and the thought exercise that went with it. 
  • The Hundred-Foot Journey
  • Virunga
  • The Machinist - We'd never seen it and finally did. It was dark and creepy and sad but a great movie nonetheless.
  • Parallels - I feel like this story would have been better served as a tv series than a film, and you could definitely see its low-budgetness coming through in a lot of places, but this sci-fi story made for a fun movie.
  • Selma
  • Interstellar - I wish I had seen this in the theater.
  • Tai-Chi Master - Super fun and accessible kung fu movie with Jet Li and Michelle Yeoh.
  • What We Do in the Shadows - Quirky and even a little lame, but still fun.
  • Sarah's Key - This movie was so much more traumatic to watch now that I'm a parent. It was kind of a run-of-the-mill World War II film but it was good and it was the first time I saw a movie in a completely different way just because I have a kid now.
  • Pump - Lots and lots of spin but some very thought-provoking concepts too.
  • Shaun the Sheep Movie - We love the Shaun the Sheep episodes and the movie did not disappoint. There is no spoken dialogue (other than unintelligible animal and human noises) and yet the story and how it was told was better than most movies out there!
  • Mission Impossible: Rogue Nation - Even though we might be reaching a saturation point with the MI movies, I really enjoyed this one. It kinda kept me guessing as to where it would go and it was just a fun movie with a decently intelligent storyline.
Here's to hoping I can play a little catch-up in 2016!

(N edit: "Good luck with that, Mom!")

Friday, June 26, 2015

Birth Story! AKA The Day I Learned True Pain

So some brief background information first. Once I got pregnant we decided to use a birthing center for all my prenatal care and labor and delivery. There are a bunch of reasons why I made that decision, but the bottom line was I wanted to maximize my chances of a natural, drug-free birth with no unnecessary medical interventions. And no, I'm not some masochist, I didn't do it to prove anything, and I have zero judgment for how you or anyone else births their babies. (In fact, after this experience I am completely sympathetic to why most people don't birth naturally!) I just personally felt that, God willing, a natural birth would produce the best outcomes for me and my baby.

On to the big day...

Here's a rundown of my early labor. I'll keep it brief so I can get to the good stuff.

1 a.m. - Crampiness and light contractions start.
3 a.m. - Show time! Bloody show, that is. It's as gross as it sounds.
3-7 a.m. -  Somewhat stronger but irregular contractions. Somewhere in that timeframe we determine Michael should stay home from work today and I call my midwife who agrees I'm in early labor.
7-10 a.m. - Continued irregular contractions. At this point I'm pretty sure today is going to be the day! I also take a brief nap sometime in here. Had I known the insane physical ordeal I was about to undergo I would've tried to sleep and rest up as long as possible to fuel me for what lay ahead. Unfortunately I didn't and went into active labor on about three hours of sleep. :(
10 a.m. - Brief walk around the neighborhood with Michael and my mom. Contractions increasing in frequency and strength now.
12:30 p.m. - Happy/chatty early labor has ended and contractions are coming regularly. They're strong enough that I just put in my earbuds (thank you, Lord Huron) and pace around the house silently as I try to breathe and relax through them.
1:30 p.m. - Contractions are now four minutes apart lasting for a minute or more, and uncomfortably strong. I call the birthing center and tell them we are coming in!
2:00 p.m. - Arrive at birthing center. Quick pelvic check. I'm only 3 cm boooo! My midwives assure me though that today is indeed the day, it'll just be awhile. They encourage me to go on another walk. We head to a nearby park and walk for about 20 minutes. Contractions are now painful enough that I have to pause at times and concentrate on getting through them. At this point I'm thinking, "Wow, these are pretty painful, can't get much worse than this, right??" Silly Cheryl!!! These are NOTHING compared to what awaits you!

After the walk we head back to the birthing center where I just continue to pace as the contractions get stronger and more painful. Even a delicious mango popsicle couldn't cheer me up! That's how serious this was!!

On to the real fun. I have no concept of the time that passed over the next five-ish hours, but here are some bullet points of what transpired.


-I didn't originally plan to, but I ended up doing most of my labor in the tub. The warm water just felt really good in between contractions so I stayed in there nearly the whole time.


-The pain. Ohhhh, the pain. I have never felt pain like that in my entire life. I didn't feel it in my back at all, it was all in my abdomen. Each contraction felt like someone was taking all my insides and twisting/wringing them out as hard as they could...for what seemed like ages...every few minutes...for hours on end. I tried pretty unsuccessfully to not think, "I can't do this," because I knew it wouldn't help. Here are some other early thoughts that went through my head.

    • Many Gob Bluth moments..."I've made a huge mistake."
    • What was I thinking giving birth naturally??
    • THIS is why people get epidurals!!
    • I was so naive about the pain and now I'm completely unprepared to deal with this with no epidural contingency plan available to me!
Now, I say "early thoughts" because as the torture wore on, the pain started driving any and every thought from my mind.

My internal monologue went something like this...

God, please help me get through th- AHHHHHH!! PAIN!! PAIN!! PAIN!!

Remember what you learned in your birthing class, remem- ARGHHHHH!!! PAIN!!! PAIN!!!! YFUTGIGJTRSTRFYTFUYF!!!! PAIN!!!!

(From James 1) "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you fa-" NOOOOOO, NOT AGAIN!!! PAIN!!! PAIN!!! PAIN!!!!

Sooo tired. Just want to sleep. Please just let this stop for a little while so I can take a- ARGHHHHH! HERE IT COMES AGAIN!!! PAIN!!! PAIN!! AHHHHHH!!!

And yes, I did scream...as hard as I could...over and over. I didn't think I'd be a screamer but the pain was so intense it was almost involuntary. And it wasn't a high pitched shriek (well, most of the time it wasn't), but let's just say my mom said later, "I've never heard Cheryl scream like that," and Michael was semi-traumatized by how much pain I was obviously in. (Editor's note: While he was semi-traumatized, Michael had also wisely foreseen and warned from the beginning how traumatic labor would be. But alas and alack, I didn't believe him. I was that confident/foolish to think I'd "be fine.")

Despite the screaming and the blinding pain, by God's gracious grace, I never completely lost it. I didn't start crying, although I was pretty close at times, and I was able to fight through it enough to still take the suggestions and instructions that were given me and do them. Also, I didn't start screaming out cuss words or anything. I didn't even think them in my mind. See, that's how mind-erasing the pain was!!

-With Michael and my mom, they were great at supporting me as best they could. My mom prayed for me the whole time and was a calming voice amidst the chaos. (My Dad stayed in a waiting area through the whole thing, but came in after she came out say hi and to take some pictures. No, I was not camera ready, and no, I did not wear makeup to the birth.) And Michael was right by my side the whole time, encouraging me, rubbing my back, holding my head up while I slumped over in the tub in between contractions, etc. He even caught my poop in his hands as I pushed! JUST KIDDING! I did an enema before we went in so I didn't have any poopage during labor. Although, if I had I wouldn't have cared. And yes pushing does feel like pushing out a ginormous poop. TMI? Anywayyyyy I'm sooo thankful for both of them!

-Apparently N was getting caught on a small lip of my cervix, plus my water never broke on it's own, and both these things prolonged my labor a bit. My midwife eventually suggested I get out of the tub and onto the bed to try something else. At that point they confirmed my water hadn't broken so they broke it manually.

-After my water broke it was only another 20 minutes or so before she was out. I felt no pain when she was crowning and coming out. By that point I just wanted it  to be over so bad, I actually semi enjoyed the pressure that came with it because I knew the end was at hand!

So once I felt her head come out I kept pushing to get the rest of her out as fast as possible. Apparently, after her head was out the rest of her shot out, and at 8:28 p.m. we officially became parents! Michael got to semi catch her and later got to cut the cord also! Originally he didn't know how much of the gore he'd be able to take and whether he'd want to cut the cord, but he said by the end there was no fear or squeamishness. I mean, after watching a baby emerge from my lady parts after hours of watching me writhe in pain, cutting an umbilical cord is no sweat!

So how did I feel afterwards?

Physically, I was COMPLETELY spent. I basically clenched up my entire body with each contraction, which you're NOT supposed to do (again, unprepared) and my arms got an especially good workout from clutching both the bar on the side of the tub and poor Michael's hand with a death grip. Still, it was amazing how much better I felt once she was out and the contractions were over. I was alert, awake, and actually chatty during the perineum repair sesh.

As for the emotional side of things, everyone had told me that once she was out I would get a rush of joy and know that it was all worth it. Well, that certainly wasn't my experience. When she came out all I could think was, "I am SO glad that's over! That was awful!!!" So yeah, bonding took time, and actually that bonding process has been gradual over even weeks of having her. I just didn't get that instant glow or joy, but then again, I'm not a super sentimental person either.

Over the next few hours I delivered the placenta, started breastfeeding, rested, and got sewn up where I tore a little. I didn't tear that bad but let's just say it still isn't fun having your torn and messed up flesh down there poked and prodded. After they numbed the area to do the stitches I was fine though. I was also able to shower which felt really good.

On N's end she was born very healthy which we were of course extremely thankful to God for. She didn't come out with any bruising or major puffiness, and she was nice and pink with a good cry. She stayed on my chest for a good while to wait for the cord to stop pulsing and empty out. Then once she was officially detached from my she was weighed and measured and got all the normal newborn evaluations and treatments done. She had her hair washed then she got to hang out with Michael and my parents while I was getting sewn up.

We headed home around 12:30 a.m. in pouring rain. I was physically tired but mentally wired from the whole experience, clean, hungry, and wearing an adult diaper. Nora was cozy and sleeping, also wearing a diaper, and it was completely surreal that we were coming home with a baby!

So anyway that's my story. Will I do it again? Time will tell. Afterwards, Michael soberly said, "The decision to have any more biological children is yours. I would never make you to go through that again if you didn't want to." Isn't he a great husband?? I have to admit, at this point I would be fine with just adopting any additional kids we'd want to have, not necessarily because of how hard labor was, but just because I feel like I've experienced it all now and don't necessarily need to go through it all again. Plus we've always wanted to adopt anyway. We'll see.

Despite how difficult and excruciating labor was, I truly don't regret my decision to birth naturally. If I did it again I would still choose the natural route, but I would definitely want to take a full childbirth class that dealt specifically with pain management. We did a one-day class but in hindsight I think a full multi-week class would've prepared me better for labor.

In the end we're just grateful for wonderfully skilled midwives who guided us, and for God's goodness and faithfulness in getting all of us safely through!

Friday, January 2, 2015

2014 Year In Review

And now I present - the 2014 Michael and Cheryl Year in Review! 10 friendship points if you can make it all the way to the end!

We start the year in January, in which I decided to try and re-enter the full-time working world outside the home, and started looking for a job. The idea was that we were ready (sort of) to start a family, so I could work for however long in the interim to help us save money for whatever lay ahead. I’ll have to do a separate series of blog posts about our pregnancy journey so far, but for now I’ll just say I still couldn’t have foreseen with any certainty that we would be starting a family this year. We had been putting it off for so many years and I could’ve easily been ok with putting it off further still, so things were up in the air.

As we thought about these things, we began considering foregoing trying to conceive altogether and just adopting. I’m somewhat of an oddball of a female and have never felt a strong desire to be pregnant or to have a baby. Not that I was against it – well, that’s a lie. There have been times in my life where I’ve adamantly thought I DO NOT WANT to have kids. Anyway…I just haven’t ever felt like it was one of those things I just HAD to do. Michael also didn’t feel any burning desire for us to have a biological child. So, we started looking into the adoption thing and it just happened that our church partners with a non-profit pregnancy and adoption organization called Anchor Point. AP was conducting an intro to adoption class and we decided to do the class. It was a fantastic experience. Even though I’m adopted and know so many people who have adopted, we learned so much about the actual process of adopting, especially locally. By the end of the class we felt equipped to start that journey, whenever that may be, and had a much better picture of all the process will entail. But something else interesting had happened. We both were left with a growing desire to adopt, but suddenly out of nowhere came this other desire in both of us to have go ahead and try to have a biological child. I can honestly say it was the first time that I thought…yes, I’m sort of ready to try this and see what happens.

So, we decided that I would go back to work and we would start trying to conceive at some point in 2014. It was for reals this time. No more saying, “Next year…next year…”

Back to the 2014 timeline. By March, God provided a full-time job for me as a “Logistics Specialist” for a company right next to Johnson Space Center. My company contracts with NASA and other public and private sector agencies to do meeting and travel logistics, interpretation, and documents translation. The transition to going back to work full-time outside my house was much more difficult than I anticipated (Where did all my free time go?? :) but in time things leveled out and we now have a good routine going. Michael has continued working at the engineering/construction firm he’s been at since last May. They’ve had some big layoffs and there is always that possibility that he could be let go, but so far they’ve kept him on. He plans to stay and ride it out for now. If he gets laid off then we’ll see what else God has for us!

In May, we got to take the trip of a lifetime to the Galapagos Islands (off the coast of Ecuador) with my parents. Michael and I had never been anywhere in Latin America other than Mexico, and it was an amazing trip filled with beautiful wildlife, scenery, and quality time with my parents. My pictures and some narration about the trip are up on Facebook. I am so thankful for the amazing vacations we’ve had, and for parents willing to bless us with basically free vacations! :)

In July, about a month and a half before the lease for our rent house was to end, we decided to bite the bullet and buy a house! We considered a few different options – traditional mortgage on an existing  home, buy a piece of land and put a manufactured home on it, buy a trailer and live in it until we could buy some land and put a home on it, etc., but we settled on a traditional home purchase and mortgage in the end. The whole process of finding the house and getting the loan from start to finish was both easier and harder than I imagined. It was crazy and time consuming, but I’m glad we decided to do it, even if it meant relinquishing some of my dreams to move away from Texas at some point in the near future. ;) So anyway we started looking for houses and jumping through all the hoops, and finally found our Roseberry house. It’s a normal 3-bedroom, 2 bath house, built in the late ‘70s, and about a 20-30 minute drive from our jobs and church.

In September, in the midst of the house hunting, loan approval process, etc., we found out I was…dun dun dun…pregnant! It was exciting and surreal and terrifying all at once. I basically liken it to walking off a cliff. It’s like…wow, I guess there’s no turning back now. Life’s about to get nuts! Again, I’ll have to blog a separate series about how pregnancy has been, but the short version is I’m feeling great and things have been very easy for me so far. We just continue to walk each day trusting in God’s sovereignty for the outcome of this pregnancy.

September, October, and November were mainly busy with house stuff. We totally understand now why everyone says a house is a work in progress and you NEVER run out of projects for it (some fun, some not so fun). As of today we’ve gotten all the major stuff done that needed immediate attention – a new roof, a new breaker box, boxes unpacked and garage organized, that sort of thing.

In this timeframe we also finally said goodbye to faithful Max, the blue ’98 Saturn I bought in high school (first and only car I had ever bought). Michael was continuing to drive it to and from work, but alas, it was dying. We had to get another vehicle anyway because neither Michael’s truck nor my Saturn could comfortably accommodate a car seat, which we we’ll eventually need. So we ended up donating Max (it literally wasn’t even worth the time and effort of selling it) and we bought a pre-owned 2012 Mazda 3. Michael got his truck back and I got the new car woohoo!

Also in November, Michael invited one of his coworkers to rent a room from us, so that began as well. Turns out it will be a very short term thing as our housemate already moved out this week to start a new job near Dallas. It was good having him though, and it forced us to get our guest bathroom in order as well as buy a bed for our guest bedroom. My parents are already anticipating many visits to see their eighth grandchild and needed something other than an air mattress to sleep on. :)

And now we are finally to December, in which we found out we are having a GIRL! We both kind of wanted a boy, but now that we know we are super excited about having a little daughter. We’ve already settled on her name, so it’s been fun calling Nora June Moore by name.

Also in December, we started a new small group Bible study with our church. We are leaders in training under a couple from our last small group. The four of us have become fast friends and we are so very grateful for our friendship with them. We look forward to growing and learning with our new small group over the next couple of years.

On a related note, Michael and I have continued to plug in at our church. Michael volunteers on Sundays to run the laser light show (just kidding, but he does run lights) for the service, and I am serving with the high school/student ministry. We are also doing a 9-month leadership development program through the church and learning lots of interesting things about leadership and ministry.

So that was our year. It’s hard to believe we marked 6 years of marriage in October. We are so thankful to God for His continued goodness and faithfulness to us as we do life together. 2015 will be a big year as we (Lord willing) make the transition to being parents. (Cheryl? Responsible for a little baby? SCARY!) We look forward to whatever else God has in store for us and pray that 2015 will bring growth in our marriage and dependence on Christ and the gospel for every trial and joy God brings our way!

Monday, December 29, 2014

Favorite Movies and Books in 2014

Well, it’s already the end of the year and it’s time for my list of favorite things watched and read in 2014. I’ll try and get a 2014 year in review post together at some point also. It’s been quite a year for us!

Movies
I haven’t yet seen the new Hunger Games, Interstellar, Big Hero 6, the new Hobbit movie, Foxcatcher, The Imitation Game, or Big Eyes. Maybe some of those will make my 2015 list.

Here are some movies I really enjoyed watching this past year, all for various reasons.

A Most Wanted Man – Great slow burn espionage film based on one of John Le Carre’s novels.
Captain Phillips
Dirty Wars (documentary)
Edge of Tomorrow
Ernest and Celestine
The Gatekeepers (documentary) – Very interesting documentary about the Israel/Palestine conflict as told through the eyes of multiple former Shin Bet heads from the past few decades. Highly recommend regardless of your level of knowledge about the conflict.
The Great Gatsby
Muppets Treasure Island and Muppets Christmas Carol – These, along with Muppets from Space are my favorite Muppet movies of all time.
Nebraska
Philomena
Prisoners – Definitely a favorite. The story was so well told and had so many twists. Chilling and completely engrossing, I was thinking about it for days.
The Rape of Europa (documentary) – The true history behind The Monuments Men
The Secret Life of Walter Mitty – Beautifully shot
Tiny: A Story About Living Small (documentary)

Books
This year, I read 31 books. Here are some of my favorites from that bunch. For a complete list of all the books I’ve read this year, friend me on Goodreads!

Fiction (17 books read in 2014)
Animal Farm by George Orwell
Bluebeard by Kurt Vonnegut
Great Expectations by Charles Dickens
The Harry Potter series by J. K. Rowling – I’ve decided to try and read through the whole series every two years. This was my second time through and I loved it just as much if not more this time around.
Interpreter of Maladies by Jhumpa Lahiri
The Joy Luck Club by Amy Tan

Non-Fiction (6 books read in 2014)
Blink by Malcolm Gladwell
David and Goliath by Malcolm Gladwell
Hanns and Rudolf: The True Story of the German Jew Who Tracked Down and Caught the Kommandant of Auschwitz by Thomas Harding
Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell (obviously I was on a Malcolm Gladwell run this year)
Wilson by A. Scott Berg

Christian living (8 books read in 2014)
Erasing Hell by Francis Chan
Generous Justice by Timothy Keller
When Helping Hurts by Steve Corbett


Let me know what I should read and watch next year in 2015!

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Four Documentaries and a View to Our Broken World

Michael and I only have an antenna for broadcast TV so most of what we watch are movies on Netflix. One great thing about Netflix is its vast collection of documentaries. In the past couple weeks we've watched four that I'd like to recommend.

*A caveat - I know documentaries are biased. They're made because they want to present a certain point of view and will generally show things that only strengthen their thesis. Regardless, I still think they're very important in shedding light on certain things and at the least they raise very important questions that need to be asked.
  • Farmageddon - Sheds some light on some of the nonsensical government crackdowns on local farms, raw milk distributors, and private crop sharing partnerships.
  • We Steal Secrets - A documentary about Wikileaks, Julian Assange, and Bradley Manning, among other things. I didn't know that much about all this and it was an informative documentary that presented a lot of different angles to the story. It also raised a lot of interesting questions about the flow and control of information in this information age.
  • The Square - Fascinating documentary detailing the progression of protests in Egypt as its citizens fight for a just and democratic political system free from corruption and Islamist extremism. Again, I didn't know very much about what was going on during the Arab Spring in Egypt and I feel like I somewhat better understand the series of events that took place.
  • Dirty Wars - Profile of some of the human costs of war, civilian casualties, the ruthless and self-defeating nature of the military machine, and the massive growth of covert military operations around the world since 9/11.
After watching all these documentaries we were left with a sense of sadness. There are so many broken things in this world, broken people, broken government systems, corruption, injustice, greed...the list goes on. I think we need to be regularly reminded of these realities as we live in our comfortable and materialistic bubbles in the U.S. One thing that was so affecting to us about The Square was having our eyes opened to the harsh and depressing reality of life in these times for the people depicted. We had to constantly remind ourselves that this was reality, not just a story. This was real death, real oppression. I can't even fathom living in that reality because I have never faced suffering remotely like that. And of course there are countless other horrors being lived out across our world - human trafficking, addiction, poverty, etc.

In the midst of all this I must remind myself of two things. First, that true justice will eventually win out, and God is not blind to all the pain and suffering of this world. He will rectify all things in His time. Second, that because of His great love in giving me grace, hope, and new life through Christ, I (and all Christian believers) am to be the fragrance of hope and a pursuer of justice in this dark world. I should not turn a blind eye to any of the suffering in this world and we (especially and definitely Christians) should be spending our lives in some way or another to care for the orphan, the poor, the oppressed. Not because doing good works saves us or gives us points with God, but because He lavished His love on us while we were still rebellious sinners. How can we not then want to be about the things He is about? Compassion, mercy, grace, truth.

And not least, we pray.

Come soon, Lord Jesus.

Monday, December 30, 2013

2013 Year In Review

This past Sunday in lieu of a sermon our campus pastor lead a time of prayer reflecting on the year past and the year to come. Up until then it hadn't sunk in for me that 2013 is over. It was a good time to think and pray and remember God's goodness and faithfulness throughout the year. In keeping with that theme, I present the Michael and Cheryl 2013 year in review/what have we been up to report!

  • In December of 2012 I quit my grant writing job with Children's Hunger Fund. I made the decision to switch to transcription for my part time job, allowing me to continue working from home and choosing my own hours. Also, frankly, I was ready to move on and do something different. Grant writing is a great field and I may return to it at some point, but it was time for a change. It was a wonderful five years of working for CHF and I have so many good memories and friends from my time there. So, the beginning of 2013 started fresh with a new job.
  • I ran my second 10k in March, finishing with a chip time of 56:21. It's no Olympic record, but it was an improvement from my first 10k time. I have also managed to exercise pretty regularly this year, (a first!) not going more than a week without running or doing something. It's definitely been necessary just to get my blood pumping since I sit around at home most of the day. Michael and I also tried the P90X2 program and got through two of the three modules - about two months straight of P90X2, four times a week. The beginning was hard, painful, frustrating, etc. but over time it was neat to see that yes, I was getting stronger and can do some of these exercises better and better. Even though we didn't finish the last month-long module it was a good experience. We are so thankful to God for good health!
  • Michael and I took two little vacations this year, one to Pedernales Falls State park to go camping for a few days while he was on spring break, and one to Hot Springs, Arkansas, for our fifth wedding anniversary.
  • I took a trip out to California in June to see my family and to see a dear friend from college get married. My closest group of friends from college were all able to make it to the wedding, which was at our alma mater of UC Irvine. It was great to see all of them in a familiar place, six years later. I absolutely cherish each trip "home" to California and getting to see family and friends.
  • In May, Michael got a job with a company in Pasadena, Texas, and started working part time while he finished his Associate's degree in instrumentation. We were so blessed that he found a job quickly and that they were so gracious to let him work part time and finish school. There have been a few small hiccups over the past six months but Michael is enjoying his job and will probably be there for awhile.
  • Speaking of which, this year I had to come to firm grips with the fact that we will most likely be in Texas for the foreseeable future. Through these past three years that we've been in Texas there's always been a chance we'd move away once certain things fell into place and if Michael found a job elsewhere. I didn't realize that I subconsciously wanted this to be the case until I was faced with the reality that we'll probably be staying and I found myself disappointed instead of glad. I can't predict the future and who knows where God will direct us, however, now that Michael has finished school, settled on a career path, and found a good job, it seems that for now, we will be sticking around. This has been hard for me to accept at times for a number of reasons, which I won't get into here, but basically it's been a good trial encouraging me to continue looking to God and trusting Him. I've needed to be reminded of all the times my ideas about "what my life should look like" have been disappointed, yet God's redirection and my prideful plans being humbled has always been good and right, and He has remained faithful through it all.
  • August was a month of transitions. Firstly, we moved! Again! For the third time in five years! :( For the past two years we were living on Michael's grandmother's property, helping to keep in eye on her. August marked a transition for Grandma also as she moved to an assisted living complex near Michael's mom. Her move meant our moving back up to Pasadena where we've rented our first house. We've enjoyed coming back to an area we already know well and Michael is less than four miles away from his work!
  • Secondly, in August we also made a decision to start attending a different church. We had been thinking and praying about it for some time and there were a number of reasons for the change, but the important things are we left on good terms with the leadership and everyone else and remain thankful for God's working in our lives through that church over the past few years. God was so good and lead us to our new church home rather quickly, and we really love it. It's called Clear Creek Community Church and we attend one of their satellite campuses. It reminds me somewhat of Cornerstone, and we've already been so blessed and encouraged by our time there. We've joined a small group (the first we've been a part of in years) and have really enjoyed the fellowship and study. The church has gone through a lot of changes in its theology and church philosophy of ministry over the 20 years it's been in existence, and it's been great to come in at a time when they've solidified a lot of things for the better, by God's grace, and are doing much for the Kingdom. We look forward to how God will use and encourage us through our time there.
  • As I've already mentioned, 2013 marked our fifth wedding anniversary (in October). It's hard to believe we've reached that "5" milestone already. Marriage has been so hard yet so good, but I would say the past two to three years have been especially good. The first couple years were pretty challenging for me, but after I spent that time wrestling it out with God (and sometimes Michael :) God has brought such a sweetness and depth to our marriage as it has progressed. Of course we still have tiffs and continue to grow in putting to death our selfishness and learning to love each other better, but all in all I am just so thankful and happy in our marriage and look forward to whatever God has for us next!
  • Also in October, I began volunteering at a food pantry a couple days a week here in Pasadena. They've got a good little operation going and serve 500+ families a month. One of our neighbors has been volunteering there for years and invited me to come along. It's been a good way to get out of the house a few times a week and do some community service. The funny thing is I was and have been looking (not very aggressively, mind you) for a part time job outside the home just to get out for a change and make some new friends. I wasn't wanting to do anything in the non-profit sector because I thought, been there, done that. Lo and behold, God brings this opportunity along and also brings all my job applications thus far to nil. So it's like hm, okay, I guess for now you don't want me to find another job and you want me to do this instead. Proverbs 16:9 again coming into play. Anyway it really has been enjoyable and I'm thankful God provided the opportunity.
Well, that pretty much brings us to the end of the year. Through the whole year I've been reading and movie watching a lot, (those are basically my free time hobbies, I guess) so check out my favorite books and movies post if you haven't yet. We had a good Thanksgiving and Christmas with Michael's family and I get to go back to California next week to see my family, yippee! I don't make New Year's resolutions so I don't have much to say about 2014 other than I can't wait for our trip to the Galapagos Islands with my parents in May along with whatever else God has for us over the next 12 months!

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Favorite Movies and Books in 2013

Well, even though my attempts at writing/blogging more regularly have failed mis...er...a...bly I'd like to make this "best of" post a yearly tradition. By doing this I will ensure that at least one post gets published on this blog each year. Victory!

MOVIES
I'll start with movies this time. Again, this list is not the best of movies released in 2013 per se but just best of movies I watched in 2013. I'm not adding any/much commentary this time because I'd end up writing pretty much the same thing on all of them. What constitutes a "good" movie to me is a great or interesting or creative or unexpected story, strong performances, and in some cases, a unique visual element or elements. Also, any mention of the word "we" refers to myself and Michael, that guy I'm married to.

  • Paranorman
  • Beasts of the Southern Wild
  • Arbitrage
  • Lars and the Real Girl
  • Chronicle
  • Oblivion - I didn't love the ending and there were some significant plot holes but visually and musically I was thinking about it for days.
  • World War Z
  • Fargo - We had never seen it before and really liked it. We were saying "Oh yeah?" in a Midwestern accent to each other for the next week or so.
  • Happy People: A Year in the Taiga - Really interesting documentary about a small village of people living off the land in Siberia.
  • Mud
  • 12 Years A Slave
  • Europa Report - We DID NOT like Gravity. While intense, there was zero story in that movie. If you want to see a GOOD space/suspense movie you have to see this.
  • Wild China - Miniseries similar to Planet Earth but completely centered on China. Really great animal footage and stories on the indigenous peoples living in small villages and communities in rural China.
  • Great Expectations (2011 BBC Miniseries)

BOOKS
I read 37 books in 2013. Again, if you're not on Goodreads and you like to read, you should be! I like seeing what my friends are reading. I try to alternate between fiction, non-fiction, and Christian living so I don't end up reading all the same thing. Here's the rundown and the list of my favs.

Christian living - 10 books read
  • Forgotten God by Francis Chan
  • Crazy Love by Francis Chan
  • Fight: A Christian Case for Non-Violence by Preston Sprinkle
  • Knowing God by J. I. Packer
  • Misreading Scripture with Western Eyes by Randolph E. Richards
Fiction - 17 books read
  • The Wrinkle in Time quintet by Madeleine L'Engle - reread
  • Breakfast at Tiffany's by Truman Capote - reread
  • And Then There Were None by Agatha Christie
  • The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald - reread
  • The Shining by Stephen King
  • Gilead by Marilynne Robinson
Non-Fiction - 10 books read
  • The Tipping Point by Malcolm Gladwell
  • Bossypants by Tina Fey
  • Twelve Years A Slave by Solomon Northup
  • 1776 by David McCullough
  • The Art of Intelligence by Henry Crumpton
  • Team of Rivals: The Political Genius of Abraham Lincoln by Doris Kearns Goodwin
  • The Devil in the White City by Erik Larson
  • The Greater Journey: Americans in Paris by David McCullough
  • John Adams by David McCullough

Any suggestions for me to read or watch in 2014?

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

It was a dark and stormy night...

Literally, it was. The Houston area gets some pretty good thunderstorms throughout the year, so when it started thundering and raining last night we didn't think much of it. Suddenly we start hearing very loud CLUNK sounds above and seemingly all around us. Michael jumped up and said, "Get in the closet! No wait, let's go to the bathroom!" He basically thought it might've been a tornado ripping stuff off the house or hurling things into it. That same thought also crossed my mind when the crashing sounds first began. So I leapt out of bed, fell to my knees and shrieked, "TAKE ME TO OZ!"

Not really. But I should've.

Before we got anywhere though Michael realized that it was just hail. Wait, not "just" hail, but massive golf ball and bigger sized hail replete with howling winds, driving rain, and thunder and lightning. I've seen a number of hail storms in my life but never hail of that proportion. It crashed down, sounding as if someone was taking a sledgehammer to our roof and throwing fastballs against our windows. After just five minutes or so though the hail stopped and things quieted down a bit. We went back to bed and Michael suddenly says, "Our cars..." Oh yeah. Well, there was nothing we could do at 11:30 p.m. about it, so we just went to sleep.

This is what we awoke to - several large cracks in the truck's windshield, a number of cracks in the siding on our house, about a kajillion dings and dents all over both the truck and my car, and oh, what's that? Yes, a massive hole in my car! Poor Max. His butt is broken.


It's all a bit of a bummer, but it was also a bit of excitement in our boring lives. We had no idea such a severe storm was going to roll through. Plus, guess what we received in our bank account today? Our tax refund! It'll more than cover everything, including enough for a down payment on a new car sometime over this next year. (Oh Max, you are dying and I am powerless to stop it!) See? God provides. I was also reminded of how thankful I am to have shelter and a roof over my head. There are so many in the world who cannot say the same and who would've suffered much more serious damage in such a storm.

I guess I should start checking the weather forecasts more often...

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Things to Come

So I obviously failed to get a post up last week, but I'll claim the excuse that Michael was on spring break so we were off our normal schedule. Onward and forward.

So Michael's been in school since last August to get an Associate's in Instrumentation. Since he already has a Bachelor's degree he will hopefully be able to finish the program by summer's end. Instrumentation is a great field to be in, good pay and no shortage of job opportunities. As a result, we really have no idea where we'll be in six months or so. While it's most likely that we will stay in the Houston area or somewhere else in Texas for at least his first job, we're open to moving anywhere in the U.S. or overseas. For some people, that prospect would be unsettling and scary. Me? I absolutely can't wait to see what God has for us over the next few years.

I've said this in the past, but I enjoy change. I get bored pretty fast and look forward to the next big thing. My opinion would probably change if we had kids, but I think I wouldn't mind moving somewhere new every few years. Regardless of where we end up, we are resolved to move from our current address sometime in the summer. So even if we move just 30 minutes away from where we are now, it will probably sate my craving for change for awhile.

The hard thing in all this is I know I should be content wherever I am, and it's a constant struggle for me to take advantage of the opportunities God gives in the moment instead of looking to the future and idolizing change and excitement. I know there will probably come a day when we are more stationary and I will have to be content with that.

I don't know where I'm going with all this except to say I'm excited to see what God has for us but am trying not to get too far ahead of myself. I don't want to be the fool who forgets that life is a short mist and everything can change in an instant. Pray for me and pray for direction for us.

Life is a grand adventure.